White Knuckles?
Emotional Contemporary Romance, Steamy Women's Fiction.
There’s nothing like a solid plan. And I have a great one for my Sage Ridge series of interconnected standalones. I know my characters, their stories are practically writing themselves, and I’m excited about this series. Having just released No Sweeter Madness, I was primed and pumped to dive into Book Four.
Then I went off-script and indulged in a side quest to the tune of a 35,000-word novella.
In this industry, there are always opportunities to do more (I’m beginning to hate that word), and I’m a ‘hey, let’s do this! Oh no, what have I gotten myself into’ kind of girl.
But not this time.
This time I took a few days, considered everything I already had on my plate, and weighed it against everything this new opportunity offers.
This promotion requires me to write a brand-new novella, but it partners me with a host of fabulously talented writers and will expose my work to new readers. It also includes a membership to Prolific Works, a bonus in and of itself.
I would have been a fool to say no.
While the novella is not due until December, it made sense to write it now because it’s a second-generation spin-off from the book I just released, and the characters are fresh in my mind.
So, I jumped the curb and wrote a sweet and spicy love story about a married couple in their 40s who are hitting a couple of speedbumps on their way to HEA 2.0.
Now that it’s finished, my inner voice is screaming, “Go! Go! Go!”
What is this force compelling me forward? Passion? Joy? Adrenaline? Momentum?
No.
It’s a heaping pile of ‘not enough.’
You’re behind.
You’re not doing enough.
You need to work faster.
Do more.
Go! Go! Go!
This constant refrain of ‘not enough’ does not fuel me. It weighs me down, depresses my mood, and takes no time at all to jump from ‘not doing enough’ to ‘not being enough’ which is a fallacy. A hoax contrived to distract me from my reason and my purpose.
And it’s currently sitting in the driver’s seat.
The only way to oust it is to take my foot off the gas. Despite the fact my entire being is taking an unholy tantrum at being side-lined, I’m prescribing a self-imposed rest and taking a long overdue emotional inventory:
How am I feeling? Scattered and overwhelmed.
What am I doing? Too much.
And most importantly, why? Because my ‘not good enough’ is white-knuckling the steering wheel.
The problem for me is there’s nothing exciting about rest. No adrenaline rush. No joy in immersing myself in the story. No production-induced self-esteem boost. No satisfaction of a job well done—not that I’m feeling that by any means which tells me more than anything else it’s, you got it, time for a rest.
It’s not sexy but it’s crucial.
Rest defies ‘not enough’ and gives it the old heave-ho.
It allows us to reassess where we’re at, realign with our values and purpose, and refocus our energies going forward.
Best of all, it resets my emotional barometer and changes my answers to those questions:
How am I feeling? Driven by the force of an untold story.
What am I doing? Writing my fabulously messy love stories.
Why? To celebrate female sexuality, encourage self-compassion, lift up sisterhood, spread empathy for mental health issues, and empower women to claim every bit of their selves.
Why? Because sexual intimacy, true love, family, and sisterhood are my passion.
Why? Because we deserve to be seen, celebrated, and supported.
With rest, we remember our joy, our passion, and our purpose. It is these things that fuel us.
One final question before I leave you:
What’s driving you?
The box set for my Milltown Series is coming June 20th!
Through thick and thin, sick and sin…
Ruby, a spitfire single mother, is dying of boredom. Expanding her business should light her fire, right?
It doesn’t…not like her first love who just walked back into her life demanding a second chance.
But how can she trust Vander when he left her shattered?
Amber, a nurturing social worker, holds little insight into her own trauma’s devastating effect on her marriage. When a perfect storm shakes the foundation of their family, Amber leaves.
After a year apart, Angus vows to choose her above all else.
But how can she forgive him? Or herself?
Minty, the epitome of poise, is anything but when Lucky rides in on his motorcycle and sweeps her up in a summer romance. Despite their age gap, her fear of breaking his tiny daughter's heart, and the crushing secret Minty guards, her traitorous heart falls hard.
She’s moved mountains before but not with an innocent child along for the ride.
If she can’t guarantee the outcome, how can she take the risk?
One last thing before I leave you!
I found a new-to-me favorite author this month: Marie Force. She writes the kind of angsty, raw, sink-your-teeth-into-it love stories that latch onto your heart and don’t let go until the last page. This one broke my heart…so I guess I’m passing on the heartbreak?
Ava faces an impossible choice between the man she yearned for and the one who put her broken heart back together...
Her boyfriend deployed five years ago to chase the world's most wanted terrorist. She never heard from him again and had no choice bit to pick up the shattered pieces of her life and start over. She falls in love with her sister's brother-in-law, Eric, who's known his own heartache. Two fragile souls take tentative steps toward a whole new future together.
And then the terrorist is captured.
A video is released that shows the commandos who led the raid. Ava sees HIM for the first time in six years. And when he comes home a national hero, all he wants is her.
Ava faces an impossible choice in FIVE YEARS GONE.
If you love it as much as I did, you’ll jump right into the next one, One Year Home!
I hope this finds you well.
Live Messy, Love Madly!
Devin.
xo